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I’m a confidence coach. This is another story from a client, transcribed pretty much verbatim. My thoughts are in square brackets.

“The reason I came to you is for more confidence, of course. I mean, in daily life. I’m sick of being pushed around just because I’m a petite female – and because I let people have their way, I guess.”

“Is there any place in your life where you are confident?”

“Yes, but not at first, and I’m hesitant to tell you about it.”

[Long silence in which I wait for her to fill the gap]

“Well, you see, I’m what you’d call a webcam performer. I started that because of two things: I needed the money, and I’m kind of a sex freak. I might be what most guys dream of – that I’m pretty much insatiable about sex. Some throw out the word “nymphomaniac.” I’m not quite that, because my urges are under control. I mean, my desire for orgasms doesn’t adversely affect my life. Quite the contrary.

You see, I found out that I could actualy get paid for masturbating online. Being a fairly attractive female [very attractive, with dark hair, an olive complexion, a very skinny short frame and a winning smile], I made a very unconfident start in playing online. At first, I was quite afraid to take off my clothes. I’m embarrassed to say that in my first shows, people paid money to see me totally nude, and I didn’t do it. Of course that’s poor ethics, but I was really scared to death. After a couple of days, though, I got bolder, and was well paid in consequence. Soon, I was having my several daily orgasms in front of a crowd, or for private viewers online, and getting paid for it. What a delight for someone like me!”

“That’s certainly evidence of great confidence!”

“In time, I realized that two lesbian women make more money online. I approached a young, a twenty-three-year-old woman I used to work with, and explained the whole thing over drinks one evening. I didn’t bring it up as if I was inviting her to go online with me, even though that was my plan. At first, she was like, ‘So, what have you been doing lately?’ And I told her that I’m a webcam model. I wasn’t sure she got it, so I came right out and said, ‘I get nude and masturbate for an appreciative, and well-paying audience online.’ As soon as I admitted that, I was prepared for her to throw her drink in my face or something like that.

“To my delight, she came right back with, ‘Wow, I wish I could do that.’ Of course that was the opening I needed, and I invited her to do a show with me and see how it goes. Months have passed, and we work together every day. At first, it was very sexy. Just looking at her was great, and then a few times a day, we’d get right down to business at the end of each show, eating each other out, rubbing each others’ pussies, playing with vibrators, pegging with a strapon, and all that. She initially thought that we shouldn’t actually orgasm online, because somehow that was too real, or something. I assured her that that’s way more than half the fun!

“But now, it has become routine. We both actually have to work a bit to have our orgasms, which just makes the shows all that much better. Oh, Cindy and I aren’t lovers, we just do our thing together online, to our mutual delight, but we do get along fine, and I don’t need confidence with her. But with everyone else in life. Like going shopping, if someone let’s say cuts in front of me in line, I want to be able to say, ‘Hey, get out of here,’ [and she laughs.] Or, like the hairdresser. I want my hair a certain tint, but she does it a bit different. Every damn time. I’ve got to get control of situations like that.

[I ask her whether I can write what she has told me for ProWank. She asks what ProWank is, and I tell her, even writing down the URL on the back of a business card so she can check it out later. She assents. Then the session starts in earnest]

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